so..i offically am a brunette :) i decided to color my hair dark for winter and i love it!

another exciting bit of news...

we are taking a weekend trip to chicago. i am planning it, and im planning on doing a carriage ride downtown at sunset, staying at the trumph tower hotel, just spoiling ourselves. we have never had 2 days alone with eachother. my bestfriend mayra offered to keep maddy for us, so i am so excited!!

im excited too for halloween, maddy is guna be a princess. :) she looks so cute! i cant believe how much she has grown up.

hoping this month is our month...we have been TTC since June. I can test tomorrow. so we will see :)

hey gals! long time no talk...i know. ive been busy alot has gone on the past couple months. well i had a job, and i quit. being away from maddy was too much for me. we bought a house in september. we have been trying for baby #2 since june. which...i thought it would be right away but i guess not. we'll keep trying. maddy is getting bigger than ever...we got a puppy. we saved her from being put to sleep at an animal shelter in texas..her name is bella. shes a black lab, and shes like having a 2nd child :)

well i gotta get going..just thought id update.

pictures * cpl brian scripsick, next sgt michael yarbrough, then michael with my husband and friends the night they deployed, next on the far left cpl brian scripsick with all our friends the mc ball 2006...<3

one year ago today...

my husband came home from iraq. and one year ago today 5 wonderful heroes, did not make it home. they were supposed to be there with us. today my friend is mourning her husband, he should have came home. my life was forever changed this last deployment. ive never known what it feels like to loose somebody who was that close to you, i never had the fear of god put into my heart that i might never see my husband again. as a marine wife with a husband deployed you know its a chance but you never really think it could happen to you. until a tradegy strikes. i remember the day like it was yesterday...ugh gives me the chills. we lost 2 dear friends to us and my friend lost her husband, her soulmate, her forever. ive never been so thankful as i was when he came home from this last deployment. knowing it could have just as easily been him. i am so thankful, but my heart hurts. my heart will always hurt..the rest of my life ill remember these guys. when people ask me well why did you get out, you should have stayed in, its better for your family. i dont give a shit how much money we would get reinlisting, i dont give a shit how much money we make on deployment, i just dont care. because no amount of money will replace my husband. it makes me sick to my stomache wives wishing their husband to deploy so they can get that new car they've been wanting. and believe me girls ive heard it a time or two. a year ago today i lost a peice of my husband, even with him coming home, he wasnt the same person. he'll never be the same person. the things he saw, and did...nobody should ever have to see or do. i love him with all of my being, and im so thankful hes here with me. today..i am thinking about those who didnt make it home. about all of our heroes who dont make it home and all the people they leave behind...this is why i support the withdrawl of troops in iraq. so that no more families have to feel this hurt, no more new born babies never meeting their dad/mom, no more families loosing a son, friend, nephew, cousin..nobody wants to hurt like this. ive heard several people say well if we withdrawl out of iraq that means everybody who died over there died for no reason..how dare they say that. i know in my heart, that our guys who died would NOT want anymore of their friends dying over there. i know in my heart had they known they were going to die over there, in that hell hole, they would not have wanted to deploy. like i said if you knew your future would you still do it? if you knew you'd never see your loved ones again, get that "first kiss", or hold your new child in your arms would you go? they sure do give up alot for this country, and what is this country doing. letting them down, we're divided right now..i really hope this country gets its shit together. all in all i have a special place in my heart for military families, and those who are the ones deploying..i always will.

rip

cpl brian j. scripsick sept 6, 2007

sgt michael yarbrough sept 6, 2007

ssgt john stock sept 6, 2007

cpl christopher poole sept 6, 2007

cpl corey tanner august 29, 2007

you guys will never leave my heart...and i think of you all everyday of my life for the rest of my life.

hey gals! just thought i would update a bit. im slacking over on this thing, but i do enjoy writing a post when i get the time. so ive been applying here and there for jobs. not really trying to get a job, just seeing what the world has to offer me. its been nice since we've been out spending time with eachother. but now im like ready for him to go to work! haha now that i know hes not deploying any more or leaving me anymore, kinda get in i gotta see him all the time mode being active duty. happy to say those days are over, i dont like being clingy.

maddy is growing like a dang weed! she'll be 15 months nov 2nd. im so excited for halloween for her! shes guna be a witch, a cute witch of course. i think shes guna have a blast. she just busts me up, shes getting so big, when i look at her im amazed that shes mine and shes the same baby that was kicking the crap out of me while she was in my tummy. i actually miss the whole pregnancy stage, i thought it was horrible but now im thinkiing its the best time of having a child lol. once they come out, look out! :) im excited for when we are ready for the next one, im hoping and praying for a boy. i really want a boy. then im done, i cant imagine another girl. woo wee lol she is a pistol. im already gettin a taste of what the terrible 2's will be like.

ive been being disapointed lately, in my "friends". a few in particular. i have a friend named lyndsey who i have been friends with for like 4 years whom i considered one of my besties, well she went and stabbed me in the back. fabulous doesnt seem to give 2 shits about it either. than i have this other "bestfriend" whom i had in cali, we were pretty close. and she waited until i left and started telling my other bestfriend out there a bunch of shit that wasnt true about me and what i was "saying" cmon now, at least say it while im there and can defend myself. what kind of shit talking is that if i am not even there to say anything. bitches.

well i guess ill end it on that note, besides that life is great.

paris new bff is on tonight yippee

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